Monday, May 14, 2007

A Wonderful Mother's Day Gift

Mother's day is a little hard for me… My mother passed away several years ago and I feel resentful of the people callously complaining about spending time with their mothers... something I would give anything to have just one more time.

I will be 38 next month and still find myself struggling with whether to have a child adopt or continue on my current path with a loving family made up of a partner and 5 wonderful pets. We are child friendly people with lives very compatible for children; to top it off my partner would love to have children. So what is the problem? Not a problem exactly, more like a hundred little questions, a thousand what ifs.

So mother’s day has become this weird anxious, bitter, sad day… where I question my choices and miss my mom. I was just trying to get through it and then I received a wonderful gift from my partner.

I haven’t started reading it yet, but it is comforting to know that others struggle with these questions as I do…

1 comment:

Anali said...

Your mom is missed by so many people, but I know that it is probably harder on you than anyone. I can still hear her laugh and imagine her smile. And I cannot think of banana pudding without thinking of her. I'm so glad that you have such a loving partner.

Just yesterday, I listened to an interview on NPR with the author. It sounds really interesting. I hope you like it and that it helps you with your current journey.